"I sing, I dream, I love anyways."
-Martina McBride
I have neglected my poor blog; it was practically dusting off spider webs opening the web page to get to it. Well I guess we can call this the catch-up post then, since I'll be giving a break down of the last few months. But hey, the feeling of insomnia that hangs around me until I was to do something important is diminishing and my feeling of necessity to do this blog post is fading quickly with it. So I am going to write this is list-paragraph forms. I find these more enjoyable to do and less of a homework assignment, even though I am writing about my own life. The soundtrack of my post tonight is Mumford and Sons, currently Sigh No More, so forgive me if my post sounds a tad depressing or blunt. It is a good song though.
Fine Arts. I lead the best human video in the world to nationals. We started in January, but we legitamently had issues gathering all of our people (a human video consists of typically ten people) for the human. Many join in and drop outs, but seemingly at the nick of time, we gathered ten kids. And I genuinely love each one of them. Devante was my baby; he was the youngest of the group and I was quite protective of him. He picked up the phrase "screw you" in out practices; I had to correct that right away. Poor impressionable thing. Sarah was certainly the most dedicated. Always doing what she had to, to get to practice, to get us ten people, to help me out with an understanding ear whenever I got insanely frustrated with the group. Jhene always was a pleasure, with her understanding of my black side and her witty, challenging remarks forever retorting with mine. She's my precious rock. Courtney just needs guidance, but she's forever avoiding it. We all know she needs it, but we'll avoid it as long as she does; there is no reason for me to force myself onto her. I love her feisty spirit though. I see a lot of her in me. Angel is forever YOLO-ing, and keeping her distance also, but in less of a careful way. She's smart, and talented and she knows how to make a group laugh, or better, love her. Caden and Will were God-sends; I have no idea were to start with them. The lacrosse playing brothers were a bit weary at first and I don't blame them. Some churches can be scary with the whole threat of being judged constantly and stuff. Believe me, I know. They are joys, pranksters, strong in every sense of the word. And they came to church last wednesday. It made me incredibly happy to see them there. Jamie is a little weirdo who likes to send me memes on my phone. My background is actually the "No." one. It reminds me of them and makes me smile, so I keep it, no matter how weird I seem. Bradley is obsessed with reptiles, and rocks. I made him a paper plate award, and gave him a rock; he named it Jeffery and carries it around everywhere. He's my little kid. Kenny takes what I say, and repeats it. "Your mom" comes out of his mouth every other sentence; he learned from the best. And I'm blessed to be taking them all to nationals, even though the road was emotional and rocky at first.
Relationships. This section won't be too long, but I've ended some and started some. I've been rethinking about the ended ones, but I haven't seen signs from the universe (or anything really) to try to make me change my mind. Other than some dreams... But they haven't been to positive. But the started friendships are extraordinarily positive. I love my new friends. I still have my old ones, but I am just expanding my circle and there is really nothing better. I've had a few crushes (but hell, I'm a serial crusher, you can't even blame me) and I've had a few people crush on me. I'm just living life right now and I'm happy for the most part.
And right now my exhaustion is sinking in, and I can't think of another category to throw the rest of my life in. It's just been good. I enjoyed school for the most part (I'd really rather not take another 8:30am class again) and I've decided I really like psychology. It really makes me clique, and I have empathy for others that I've come to be able to harness. I've been emotional but kept that mostly to myself; there's no reason for me to be bother other people with my nonsensical bull. I'll try to write more, but I always say that, so no more broken promises to myself.
And I'm feeling good.
